Originally written in February 2013. There is truth in this post. LOVE ALL MY BABIES
I’ve been thinking a lot about how this new baby will affect all of our lives. I especially worry about Austin and how he will cope with this new baby. For 16 months he has been my world and I spend every waking minute with him. I worry about when the new baby comes and how much of my time I am going to be able to give to him. Should we have waited longer to have this baby? Will Austin transition well? Will we be able to get out as much? … Will he feel LOVED?
It breaks my heart to think that Austin may not feel special anymore. It could be the hormones of pregnancy, but I really hope I can continue to be a great mommy to my lil sidekick. I hope that he understands that he is NOT being replaced. Daddy and I just wanted to give him a playmate.
I hope that I can get into the groove of having two kids quickly. I like being able to decide last-minute that I want to go to the Zoo or SeaWorld. Austin and I have so much fun during the day. It’s going to be a big change to have to stop every 2 hours to feed Luke. I remember it took me over a month to leave the house with Austin. I know it will be different because I WILL go stir crazy chasing around a toddler who just want to go OUTSIDE.
Speaking of going outside. Here is what we did on Saturday as a family. Fun in the Sun & Water!
A Picture Montage:
Daddy cleaned his pool hoping that Austin would want to play in it on this HOT February day. Nope, he wanted to water his rocks.
Pulling his wagon.
LOVED the hose. Who knew.
Popsicle time. He likes to bite it. Hasn’t master licking or sucking a popsicle yet. Look at that face. 🙂
LOVE my lil man.
Having two kids will definitely be a new adventure. It’s funny to think about how much love you have to give. When I got married, I thought I gave my whole heart to my husband. Then our son was born and I gave him half. Now our newest member of the family will join us in a few short months and he will get his equal share. Fortunately, I don’t think it will be that difficult to love this new baby as much as I love my 2 other boys.
Giving your heart to someone doesn’t make sense in math terms. You’d think that the more people you have to love, the smaller the pieces of your heart you have to give. It’s not like that at all. I gave Justin my whole heart, then my heart grew to be able to give the same amount to Austin. The same thing will happen with little Lukie. My heart grows exponentially each time our family grows. I love you all very much. Thank you for making my life so special and for making me feel so loved.